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It's been a long time. Most of my readers probably know me in real life. And to be honest, writing this post took so much courage from myself. I've been diagnosed with Cervical Syndrome. It's not deadly but the pain is really unbearable. Whenever my shoulders acting up, I often found myself crying in silence. I've always been a burden to those around me and after discovering my illness, I feel like I become even more dependent. I hate feeling so useless and need help from other people but at the same time, I need it. I can't drive my own motorcycle for too long so I need my brother to take me to the hospital everytime my shoulders acting up. I want to get a stable job so I can help my mom paying her debt but with my condition, I don't even have the confidence to apply to any companies. So, once again, I'm a burden. I always want happiness in my life, as simple as that. But with my health and how messy my family is.. I doubt it will happen a...