I don’t think everyone’s in love. Well, maybe not all of
them, but most of them don’t even know what love is. I think that they just
love the idea of being in love. They love the idea how two souls can be
together for a long time.
I’m not saying those who claim themselves in love with
someone are lying. They just don’t know it. The tingles in their stomach when
they close to someone they like.. they assume it as love. Even though it’s
actually just a crush. You can’t be in love with someone that fast.
People around me believe in love from the first sight. Yeah,
well, I don’t. If you love someone that way, isn’t that because of their look?
I mean, when we first meet someone, we won’t know their personality. We just
know that he or she is good or nasty. Meanwhile there are a lot things people
can hide from us.
I’m in love with the idea of being in love. It looks
beautiful, pretty, yet comforting thought. To have someone cheers you up when
you are not in a good mood. Or to be hugged from behind when you’re pissed. Or
maybe be kissed when you’re mad. Those things sounded sooo comforting.
Especially when you know there will be someone waiting for holding your hand
whenever you both meet.
My friends told me that I’m being delusional. There is no
such thing as perfect relationship. For once, I don’t want perfect. I know that
every relationship has its struggle and that’s okay by me. Mine is imperfect, I
often get mad at silly things but my boyfriend stay still. He won’t get mad
just because I mad, instead he will try to calm me down.
Maybe we aren’t meant for each other.. or so they say. But
even if we aren’t, at least we have to try it first. Because for me, love is
when someone else’s happiness is your happiness too. Love is when you sacrifice
everything just so you can be with someone you’re in love with.
I love him and he does more than enough to prove his love to
me.
Even though I’m not sure yet, but I think it’s enough for
now.
Dina