Fear
I’ve been gone for a quite some time, haven’t I? There are literally so many things going on in my life and I just don’t know what to do anymore. If I’m being honest, I’m tired. This is all so overwhelming for me. All I want to do is curling up in a ball and crying my eyes out. But this is life. It sucks at the moment but it will get better. I love my life in general but right now I just hate it so much. Things are going out of control, my headache is getting worse by each passing day but I still have a shitload of works to do. People might say crying is a sign of weakness. I completely disagree. From what I’ve known, most people crying because they have been so strong for so long and it just a matter of time until they break. In my entire life, I always fear failure. My father always telling me to be the best from the best. If I can’t then I basically fail to fulfill my duty as his child, to please him. Thus I have to study and work even harder than befor...