A letter

Holla!
How are you guys? Been two weeks since my last post. And I'm sorry for that. My exam weeks are coming up and I definitely need to study. But ey, I have some time to write right at this moment and I was thinking; why the hell not?

In all honesty, at first, I was actually didn't know what to write. I just done 2 of my exams which were two of difficult subjects in the first semester. But yeah, let just hope I can pass those two #armcrossed. And since I'm tired and still pretty upset about what's going on with my life recently, I'm just gonna write a letter for him-who-just-broke-my-heart.

Dear you,
Hi, it's almost a month since we last met.. or texting each other. So, how are you? I do believe you're super fine because you have a new girlfriend. Congratulation, by the way. I hope you two have a longlasting relationship :)

But the truth is, I have some questions I'd like to ask you. These questions were haunting me ever since you left me, alone.

Why did you do this to me?
Why did you make me hope for more?
What was your purpose to be that close to me last month?
Why did you leave me when I was slowly falling for you?
How do you manage to stay calm after what you did?

I thought you were different. I thought you really care about me! But no. You came out of nowhere then flew me high and all of sudden, you ran away. You weren't there when I fell. How could you do this to me?

Maybe if it wasn't you, I could understand. But this is you we are talking about. Out of all people, you decided to do this to me. You know what? I trusted you. I did, I really did. Not because you were kind to me, it was like you said "you can trust me" indirectly.. but now you're like "oh well, you're not really worth it, bye".

What am I supposed to do now?

I know I have to move on, I can't stuck here forever. But there's one thing you should know; every scar tells a story, no matter how little it is. The scar you've left me with.. it is still here. Not fully healed, but I'm sure it will be. You might think I'm pathetic because you don't know the truth.

Only my bestfriends know about me. They know exactly how I feel and they're always there for me. Well, if you ever think I'm gonna stuck here, you're awfully wrong. I have a life before you came and ruined it all, so don't you dare expect me to just sit here and crying all day.

Last but not least, I want to remind you; karma still exists.

Cheers,
Dina

So yeah, that letter pretty much tells you about what I feel right now. Although it's not as I expected but, well, the letter said it all, I guess. It's getting late here and I'm so sleepy.

Ciao!