Jealousy?

Hello, beautiful people!

I'm not dead, yayyyy! Hahaha tapi gue tidur kek orang mati. Kalo inget gue kemaren tidur hampir 12 jam.. rasanya pengen tutup bantal karena malu! Ah, tapi seriusan bisa ngebantu emosi labil. Apalagi selama di Semarang, gue enggak pernah bisa tidur setenang itu.

Bergalau bentar yak.

Do you know that feeling when you see your crush is in love with someone else? I mean, the pain.. it hurts you so bad, isn't it?

I don't exactly know whether my crush is in love or not- but I do have feeling he is. Everytime he looks at her, it's kind of same with the way I look at him (from the backseat, of course). You may think this way; "why are you jealous when you aren't even dating him?", but the truth is hell yeah, I'm jealous. I like him so much.

Enggak seharusnya gue ngerasa kayak gini. Gue bukan siapa - siapa dia. Dan pula gue yakin 100% kalo dia enggak bakal pernah suka sama gue yang childish nya naudzubillah ini. Sayang gue enggak bisa lupain dia sampe sekarang, atau lebih tepatnya.. lupain perasaan gue ke dia, ihik :')

Ada yang bilang kalo a girl can wait forever. Disini gue enggak mau menyanggah atau membenarkan pernyataan itu. Karena, let just admit it, terkadang cewek bisa ngelupain seseorang yang pernah ngisi hari - harinya lebih cepet daripada dia milih baju buat ke promnight. Tapi ada juga kalanya ketika cewek amat menyayangi seseorang, entah secara diam - diam atau terang - terangan, dan akan tetap menyayangi orang tersebut meskipun dia udah ngebuat cewek ini sakit.

Si cowok ini.. I have been in love with him for months now. Dan sejujurnya, gue berharap gue bisa ngehapus semua perasaan buat dia. You know, kayak tombol Backspace di keyboard yang digunain buat ngehapus karakter di Ms. Word, icon Undo di ribbon juga, mungkin?

Love is simple but it brings a hell lot of complicated things. It's never wrong. Sometimes it may comes at the worst time but we know, it's right.

Dear you,

I never told you this in real life but I just wish you could give me just a little bit of your attention. You may wish that I could un-love you. But the thing is, I probably will love you for a long time. Don't worry, I won't bother you with my sappy feeling.

Cheers

Dina