A sky full of stars

Oh, hellooooooo!

Sorry I've been MIA (Missing In Action) for a month but to my defense, I was really busy with a lot of activities and then I was sick for about a week. Sick, like.. really sick. I was hospitalized for 3 days and I had to take medicines for the next 5 days. I couldn't do anything. I could barely walk and eat properly. So yeah, it felt a lot like I was grounded because I couldn't touch my laptop, only my phone.

But other than that, you could say I'm healthy now. I would like to hug and kiss my parents, especially my mom because they were there when I needed them the most.

New semester! I'm officially a senior now. And to think a year could go that fast... such a mindblowing (I still remember perfectly I was a freshman last year, a junior). I'm including to those who have to make this kind of "welcoming celebration". Not exactly a celebration, we call it "Ospek" here in Indonesia but whatever. But for the reminder, it makes me extremely busy.

Alright, enough with the catch-up. What I'm gonna write today is more likely far from what I wrote above.

Let's talk about "balanced life".

 Maybe for some of us, we may think "balanced? my life is full of happiness!" or maybe "I don't think balanced life is exists since my life is stuck in misery and such". And to be brutally honest, I've been in both position. I felt like the world is too cruel to me but then I felt like God has blessed me in so many ways and so I'm happy.

But to think again, life is basically balanced. Just like the world has made of. There are poor people and rich people. Sick and healthy life. As for life, it's like 50% of our lives are filled with happiness meanwhile the other 50% are filled with sadness, the misery. For the result, there are days when we just happy but there are also days when we just want to cry our hearts out (or is it just me?)



I also discovered that there is a big possibility that this-balanced-life happen in just a day. For the example, there was a little boy who just had a new toy. He was over the moon because his daddy rarely gives him a new toy, useless, as he would say. But when the night came, him and his parents were forced to move out from their house because as it turned out, his daddy hadn't paid the rent for 2 months. The little boy was crying so hard because it was really cold outside and they had no house to stay.

See what I mean?

It's not like we can choose it. God has planned it all, the best plan for us humans. Maybe we don't know yet why but someday, we will. I believe that know.


Sure it's not easy to have this kind of balanced life. All we want is just to be happy but again, what's the meaning of life if you never make a mistake? Life is a scary and mysterious thing. But no matter how scary it is, how miserable we are, we will find a way to make things better, to be happy again just like we want to.

I can't say I'm 100% happy about the half percentage of misery in my life but no matter what happens, I'm still living in it. And that is my fate, so I just gonna find a way to make my misery days a little bit better. Blogging for example, it's one of my escape when things around me get too much. I can write whatever I want (as long as it doesn't offend someone) just to make my sadness go away even it just a bit.

I'm not the world's best at giving advice but most of my friends say that some of my advices had helped them through the hard time. To be honest, I also think my bestfriends also the reason why I can accept the fact that I can't be 100% happy. So what if I have bad days? They've got my back and I've got theirs.

A friend of mine said this once :

"Smile. Somebody could be falling in love with your smile."

Smile, sunshine. Because as in one of Coldplay's song, a sky is full of stars. One of them is maybe you. And you will go lighter in the dark.



Cheers,


Dina