Holding On
A few days ago, one of my colleagues asked me; "Dee, what makes you keep holding on until now?" I couldn't help but stop what I was doing and thought about it for a moment. What makes me endure all of the pains and still carry on with my life? As many of you know, I suffer from severe depression for the past couple of years. I even planned to end my own life. I was desperately holding on to a thin line. It was such a struggle to spend a day without crying. I cried so much that it hurt me physically. I was constantly feeling blue and unmotivated. As the day went by, my will to live also disappeared. I desperately needed someone to calm me down and tell me that it was okay and I shouldn't have felt worthless. I knew that I needed professional help, and I did. I sought help only to be told that I was not religious enough and needed to pray more . I would be lying if I say that sentence didn't hurt me because it did. My effort to get better didn...