I Will Wait; a thing or two about One Direction's hiatus

Definitely emotional after reading that snap. Thanks, MTV!

Anyway, yes, my favourite boyband will go on hiatus for indefinite time. And as much as I'm not ready for it, they need it. They fucking deserve it. I mean, who the hell goes five freaking year for touring and making albums?! Even a diva like Taylor Swift releases her albums every two years— two, not one.

Am I gonna miss those idiots? Yes, I definitely will miss them. I've spent the majority of my free time watching their videos, ogling over their candid pictures, or even reading so many great fics. So, yeah, I think it's understandable if I say I will miss those lads very much.

I first knew them from a senior when I was just a freshman in school. It wasn't love at first sight. I couldn't even tell the difference of Liam and Harry who both had a same hairstyle in What Makes You Beautiful music video. So, yeah. I'm not a fan from 2010, I only first saw their video in December 2011 or January 2012 (I'm not quite sure). But after about ten videos or so, I was slowly falling for them.

I started being active on Twitter, making friends over the fandom. And yes, I've found lots of friends from the One Direction fandom. I thought it was only temporary, but my assumption was proven wrong when I realised, I'm still friends with Nabila. We chat daily through BBM, Line, and even Snapchat! She was just a tiny 'lil sixth grade pumpkin who lived in Jakarta. And now, four years later, she has grown into this cute pumpkin on her first year on high school. On top of that, we've only met once!!

One Direction has brought so much joy into my life. Sure, they occasionally make my anxiety skyrocketed for more than a couple of times (especially this year) but I can't tell you how much my life has changed since I know those lads. And for the better, of course. Their constant appearance in my life makes a huge impact.

When I was still in school, I was bullied because how fat I was (I still am, by the way). I reacted badly to negative comments. I might not show it in school but I took it upon myself to make the situation better with self-harming. It was stupid and crazy and irrational, I know. But somehow physical pain made it all better. It was like taking the shame to myself, my own body.

When I became #1 enemy in the class, I would just sit quietly and listen to the angelic voices of One Direction boys. When I watched the video of Harry crying over the hate he got from the internet, I teared up. Not only because we went through a similar phase, but just... the fragility of his made me realise that hey, nobody's perfect. Such a thing doesn't even exist.

Looking back now, the new Harry looks so confident in his patterned shirts and tight jeans, along with his stupid boots and that long curly hair of his. And Niall, being a carefree lad he always has, just laughs at whatever is funny to him.

They literally make me happy on the times I can't even count anymore. From that moment, I swore to put watch 1D's gig on my bucket list.

And then it happened. Last year, the promoter announced that One Direction would be having a gig in Jakarta this year. I remember freaked out for not having money and such. And to be honest, I was so sure I wouldn't be able to see them perform. But, Allah had another plans. Two of my amazing friends, Dyas and M.Tri, helped me to see their gig. From the concert tickets to the accommodation, they helped me so much and I'm so grateful for that. The bond we've had over this stupid boyband maybe came off a bit strong back then but I never regret a thing.

March 25th, 2015

I was finally in Jakarta. The realisation hit me up like tons of bricks that I wanted to cry my eyes out because wow, I'm seeing them live. I remember having lots of mixed feelings that I became numb and just wanted to sleep but I couldn't because I will see those idiots right in front of my eyes (not literally face to face but.. you know what I mean, don't youuuuu).

Unfortunately that day was the best and the worst day in my entire existence as a fangirl. I watched them live (which they sounded amazing, by the way. I could listen to their voices for years and will never get tired of it), but I also had to witness how Zayn's decision to leave the group had impacted lots of people including myself. I was still having PCD (Post Concert Depression) and scrolling through Twitter didn't help me a bit because my timeline was full of people mourning over Zayn's decision.

CelebMix said it best, to be honest.

I'm not ready yet to see the lads working on their solo projects. And to think of it, I don't think I will ever be ready for that. However, they deserve the hiatus. I— we, as in the fans, owe it to them. They've been working so hard for the last five years, making sure we get the best albums with the best songs. All the while they were away from families and friends (which is very tough, I can agree on that one).

I think not only they deserve this, they need this, we need this. Not only giving them the time to catch up with their loved ones but also appreciating what they've done for us.

It's the end of their first chapter of life. It's been hectic and mental, but it's also been memorable. Louis has promised to come back. Not just him, all of them promised to come back someday in the future. And I can't do anything but hanging on to that promise and make a new one for myself; I will wait for them to come back.

No matter how long the break will take, I promise I'll be here when they get back. I promise to stay in touch with all of my acquaintances around the world even though I'll be busy with my thesis next year.

I will wait, because I know how much they care about us.

Kisses from an Indonesian Directioner,

Dina

Random

Hi. I, uh, I apologized in advance of my absence.

I've been depressed for the past few weeks. I thought it was only another meltdown but when I constantly cry, I knew that it's not. I knew it's depression right away, although I've never consulted this to psychiatrist.

It started when I came back from Jakarta. On the previous post, I've written about the event I attended, so I'm not gonna talk about it anymore.

I became one of the contributor for Cerita Kita, and I'm actually really proud of myself because of that. To be honest, I'd hoped my so-called friends in uni would be happy for me and such. Unfortunately, I don't think they are.

They ignored me for a good amount of time, which it made realise me how friendless I actually am. I laughed at myself, realising that an awkward-and-ugly person like me would never have any actual friends. What the hell was I thinking?

I've been clean for more than a year but I actually had an urge to self-harm again last week. It was too much and I just... I don't know.

Cerita Kita #CastingCallBatch2

I'd like to start this post with a simple thank you to my parents and my bestfriends +Sri Rejeki Handayani and +ulin nuha for always believe in me. And of course, for +Gogirl! Magazine and CleanAndClear for this huge opportunity.

Thank you so much. I'm so grateful and honored to be involved in such a huge event :)

Sekitar satu atau dua bulan yang lalu, aku lagi iseng buka laman Facebook, kebetulan ada advertisement tentang Casting Call untuk kontributor Cerita Kita Batch 2. Ada 5 kelas yang akan dimentori oleh orang-orang yang berpengalaman; Photography Class, Beauty Class, Graphic Design Class, Fashion Styling Class, dan Writing Class. Karena aku memang udah suka nulis sejak jaman sekolah, aku mutusin buat daftar ke Writing Class.

Honestly, gak pernah terlintas di benakku akan lolos ke final. Aku bahkan sebenernya udah lupa kalo pernah daftar acara ini.

Sampe kira-kira 2 minggu yang lalu, aku dapet telpon dari nomer Jakarta waktu lagi ngajar les. Tapi karena HP sering aku silent, telpon itu cuma sekedar lewat alias missed call aja. Besoknya, nomer itu ngehubungin lagi waktu aku perjalanan pulang kuliah. Begitu sampe rumah, ada SMS dari Kak Annisa yang minta aku buat notice dia kalo udah bisa dihubungin. Sekitar 30 menit kemudian, Kak Annisa telpon ke nomerku dan kasih kabar ke aku yang jadi salah satu calon finalis Casting Call Batch 2. Remember the keyword here, calon. Even so, aku udah excited banget.

Keesokan harinya, aku bolak-balik ngunjungin laman Cerita Kita buat liat pengumuman. Karena sampe malem belum ada postingan juga, aku nyerah dan berhenti. 

Waktu hari Sabtu, 29 Agustus 2015, kebetulan paket internet smartphoneku lagi habis. Praktis, aku gak bisa buka website. Akhirnya, aku minta tolong Yani untuk ngecek website Cerita Kita, mungkin aja udah di-post. Gak ada 15 menit, dia udah SMS lagi ke aku, ngasih tau kalo namaku ada di daftar finalis.

Setelah perdebatan singkat yang konyol, aku akhirnya beli pulsa untuk paket internet dan langsung buka ngetik alamat Cerita Kita di tab baru. Kaget, seneng, gak nyangka, speechless, semuanya jadi satu waktu beneran ada namaku di daftar. Masih inget banget tanganku gemetar karena excitement.

Sekitar seminggu kemudian, Kak Nisa mulai ngehubungin aku tentang rencana keberangkatan dan segala macemnya. It was exciting! Kebetulan aku gak sengaja nemu Ulfa yang ternyata berdomisili di Salatiga. We chatted and talked about the upcoming event which was so fun.

Me and Ulfa on our way to Jakarta

Akhirnya, hari yang dinantiin dateng juga. Hari Sabtu kemarin (12/09/15), aku dan Ulfa yang emang udah janjian buat ketemu di bandara akhirnya terbang ke Jakarta. Our flight was so early, I nearly fell asleep on my way to airport hahaha. Sesampainya di bandara Soekarno-Hatta, ternyata kita itu peserta luar kota yang terakhir. Azizah (Pekanbaru), Balqis (Lampung), dan Janis (Bali) udah duluan nyampe di Gate 2F. Sebenernya ada Ollyvia (Manado) tapi ternyata karena ada miskom, Ollyvia udah keburu dijemput sama temennya.

Dari bandara, Kak Ayu langsung nganterin kita ke venue acara, Conclave. We arrived way too early. Alhasil kita harus nunggu di Library selama beberapa jam.

Yay for all of us!

Sekitar jam 1-an, setelah para finalis selesai registrasi dan foto di photobooth yang keren banget (I want to see the pictures really bad!), kita masuk ke salah satu ruangan untuk acara pembukaan gitu. Kak Ucita Pohan yang bertugas sebagai MC berhasil ngebuat acara tambah seru!

Kemudian, aku masuk ke ruangan yang khusus disediain untuk Writing Class bareng 10 finalis lain. We got Anita Moran as our coach! Kak Anita bukan cuma jago dalam hal Creative Writing, dia juga bisa bikin layout jadi tambah menarik gitu, plus she's super gorgeous! 

We learned from the best!

Setelah belajar gimana cara membuat artikel yang baik, kita diwajibkan buat nulis satu artikel dengan tema bebas sebanyak satu halaman dengan waktu 45 menit. I remember how the others were typing furiously to their laptops and I just sat there, lacking ideas. Pikiranku bener-bener blank. Modal nekat, aku nulis apa aja yang ada di pikiranku. Pada akhirnya, baru paragraf ketiga udah stuck gitu aja. Sempet bete abis karena cewek yang disamping kanan-kiriku udah mulai editing artikel mereka, akhirnya aku ganti judul. Gak cuma sekali, aku kemarin sampe 2 atau 3 kali ganti judul.

Abis itu pasrah aja. I didn't expect anything from it. Karena aku sadar, tulisanku jauh banget dari kata sempurna. Tapi yang paling penting bukan hasil akhir, melainkan prosesnya. Bisa termasuk dalam 50 finalis dan bisa dateng ke Jakarta aja udah bersyukur banget.

I looked so tiny here LOL

Smile can make you happy

Sebelum pengumuman, ada Join Class dulu dong. Di kelas ini, semuanya bebas buat tanya tentang confidence dan skin problems. Seru! Banyak pengetahuan baru yang aku dapet dari kelas ini. Salah satu yang paling penting, masih bisa pake make up meskipun wajah lagi berjerawat dengan syarat tidak mengandung minyak.


Acara selanjutnya, pengumuman pemenang Instagram. 

Pada saat pembukaan, Kak Uci udah nyuruh para peserta workshop buat upload foto sebanyak-banyaknya di Instagram dengan caption yang menarik dan diberi hashtag #SiapTampil #CastingCallBatch2, serta mention akun Instagram GoGirl! dan Cerita Kita. Aku sendiri gak jago dalam hal foto, I basically just take whatever I like. Jadi, I was surprised to hear my name. Gak nyangka banget bisa menang padahal cuma upload foto sederhana di Instagram. Thank you for the MAP Voucher, GoGirl! 

Instagram winners!

Acara terakhir, the announcement. Pengumumuman 10 kontributor Cerita Kita dari 5 kelas yang ada. Aku dan Ulfa (she was in the Photography Class) udah gak berharap buat lolos. Yang ada di pikiran kita adalah "kapan ke hotel?". Before you think anything further, just remember we came to the Ahmad Yani airport at 6 in the morning. Sementara pengumuman itu dibacain sekitar jam 5. We were tired, yes. Tapi hal itu gak menyurutkan semangat kita untuk bertepuk tangan ketika satu-persatu kontributor terpilih dipanggil ke depan. They worked hard, we needed to appreciate that!

My expression on the second one tho..

Waktu Kak Uci manggil namaku pertama kali, aku cuma bisa bengong. I turned to Ulfa and said, "Is that true? Aku? Beneran?". Sampe akhirnya beberapa cewek yang ada di depanku tepuk tangan meriah dan Ulfa nyuruh aku buat maju. My hands were shaking and I wanted to cry so freaking bad! Semuanya terjadi di luar perkiraanku.

She was such an amazing coach! Thank you, Kak Anita Moran!

It was definitely worth the early flight and missing the orientation day at my uni.

Malemnya, Kak Ayu dan finalis yang berasal dari luar kota langsung meluncur ke Hotel Grand Kemang. Lagi-lagi aku berpasangan sama Ulfa hahaha. Di kamar, kita ngomongin banyak hal random sampe akhirnya perut minta diisi. We decided to go to Domino's Pizza, karena kebetulan voucherku berlaku di situ.

Kita sampe di hotel lagi jam 10 malem dan langsung siap-siap tidur. She slept first meanwhile I did my homework which is due today. 

Paginya, aku bangun lebih dulu dan langsung cek HP (kebiasan buruk! *scold myself*). Sekitar jam 07.30, kita berdua turun buat sarapan sekalian check out. Time flew too fast! Tau-tau kita berdua udah di bandara lagi untuk pulang ke Semarang.

Iya tau, muka aku emang lebar :p

By the way, I met my internet friend today as well! Hi, Nabila!! 4 tahun temenan dan akhirnya bisa ketemu walau cuma sebentar. Makasih gifts-nya, I love them very much! I still hope to see you again, maybe with Reiza next time! Love you, bub! 

Aku sadar banget betapa beruntungnya aku selama weekend ini. I went to Jakarta without any expectation and came home with these incredible gifts. Gak ada kata-kata yang bisa aku rangkai untuk mengekspresikan betapa senang dan terhormatnya aku karena terpilih jadi kontributor untuk Cerita Kita dari Batch 2.

Thank you, Nab!

Dear readers, di akhir post ini aku mau bilang beberapa hal:

1. BERMIMPILAH. As long as you can dream it, there is a hope. And that hope will make you believe, you can achieve it.
2. Have faith in yourself. Jangan hiraukan mereka yang pengen liat kamu gagal.
3. DON'T EVER GIVE UP. Hidup memang gak mudah, tapi kamu jangan nyerah gitu aja. Keep trying, although people are doubting you.

Writing has always been my passion since a long time ago. 

I used to write secretly in my book just so my parents won't be suspicious. Dan ini adalah kesempatan besar yang aku dapetin dengan usahaku sendiri. Do you know how it feels? It feels fun-freaking-tastic! I earned this and I'm proud of myself.

I am awkward but I'm still happy!

Last but not least, terima kasih kepada semua yang terlibat event menakjubkan ini!

I swear I didn't rob a drugstore!

Gogirl! Magazine yang bener-bener total dalam semua hal dan Clean and Clear yang gak berhenti menyemangati para gadis remaja untuk menemukan passion. Terima kasih banyak! Dan untuk para finalis, you girls are so talented and I'm more than happy to meet you. Sukses terus semuanya!


Photocredit: Ulfa, @Gogirlmagazine, @CleanandClearID, @ceritakitaID

I FREAKING DID IT!

Kisses,

Dee

Book nerd alert!

You guys!! I've been dying to write here! But college has just started and because I have a part-time job, free time is such a rarity for me *insert frustrating emoji here*. Just this afternoon I had to skip one of my classes due to the dizziness I felt. And I felt terrible for cancelling a tutor session with a kid.

Thank goodness I feel a lot better after took two hours nap. So, here I am, writing about random stuffs again.

Earlier this week, a friend of mine asked me to give a book recommendation for her thesis. I suggested some of my favourite books but I don't know what will she choose.

And then, I just remember that some people asked about what kind of book or novel I like. Honestly, I don't exactly know about that. I usually read the synopsis (on the back cover of the book), and a review before I decide to read the entire book. One of my bestfriend is a book nerd too, so, she often gives me good recommendations. If I happen to like it, I will download the full version. In some cases, she (my bestfriend) lends me her books.

IF I have to choose one, I probably will choose romantic books. Cheesy but what can I say? I'm a sucker for romantic gestures even if it just in the books *grins playfully*. But that doesn't mean I'm not a fan of the other genres because I certainly am.

This time, I have made a list of books I've read, whether in its Indonesian versions or the English ones. You may find it online or in bookstores, totally your choice. If you prefer the e-book version, I suggest you download the EPUB version than the PDF ones. It's a lot easier to read them with Universal Book Reader app (on phones or tablets). I absolutely love that app!

A list of books I've read:

- Divergent trilogy by Veronica Roth (I love the third book!****)

- The Fault in Our Stars by John Green***

- The Maze Runner by James Dashner****

- The Scorch Trial by James Dashner****

- The Death Cure by James Dashner****

- The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky (the book is different than the film)*****

- Paper Towns by John Green

- Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell (I can relate to this book on a personal level)****

- The Hunger Games trilogy by Suzanne Collins***

- The Duff by Kody Keplinger**

- Looking For Alaska by John Green (MY ULTIMATE FAVOURITE)*****

- Breaking Dawn from Twilight series by Stephenie Meyer

- Void Moon by Michael Connelly

- The Crush by Sandra Brown

Meanwhile this one is a list of books I'm currently reading AND about to read:

- Eleanor and Park by Rainbow Rowell

- To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee (I still haven't finished it in a year, damn it)

- Will Grayson, Will Grayson by David Levithan and John Green

- Hopeless by Colleen Hoover

- Emma by Jane Austen

- Beautiful Disaster series by Jamie McGuire

- Ten Tiny Breaths series by K.A. Tucker

- We Were Liars by E. Lockhart

- Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte

- To All The Boys I've Loved Before by Jenny Han

- After series by Anna Todd (I've read the fanfic versions on Wattpad but still..)

- The Mortal Instruments series by Cassandra Clare (I'm excited for the TV show!)

- Every You, Every Me by David Levithan

- Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
- Vampire Academy series by Richelle Mead

There are a hell lot of books I want to read but I only got a little time to finish it. As for the moment, I'm reading Hopeless, After We Collided, and Pride and Prejudice. I can't stay only reading one book, I always end up reading two books (I have no idea why though).

Oh, and I put the stars on the books that I like. Five stars mean I absolutely love it.

I hope you find this post useful. But if you're not, that's okay too.

Kisses,

Dee

Book Review: Fangirl

I’m a book nerd. Everyone who knows me so well will tell you that in a heartbeat. And I’m not going to deny that.

But I never realised I’ve read so many books over the past few years.

I always have bunch of opinions every single time I finish reading a book. So, from this point forward, I’ll try to write my opinions about the books I’ve read.

This is the first one and I’m excited!

Title: Fangirl

Author: Rainbow Rowell

I read the Indonesian version of the book which I borrowed from my bestfriend. And I have to say, it is a great book. I can relate to the main character very well because, well, I’m a fangirl myself.

I like the way Rowell described Cath’s personality. She was a closed-off girl who was too busy in her fantasy world. It is indeed a rather fit description for a fangirl.

But, the plot was kind of bothering me. Rowell kept putting Cath’s story on Fanfixx or a few paragraphs of GTL’s (the author of Simon Snow in the book) in the end of every chapter. I mean, it was nice to see why Cath could be a fangirl because of the novels but it was also confusing for me.

I felt like I was reading two books at once.

Other than that, Rowell was very good at the flashback parts. It was smooth as f-ck. I wasn’t a big fan of reading a flashback plot but honestly, I was kind of enjoy it.

People usually expect the fangirls (like me) to be loud and annoying kind of person. When in reality, we are like Cather in this book. Most of fangirls are quiet and choose to not have friends. Also, we are awkward. However, we can be lovely through social medias.

Reading this book was like reading my own life (minus Levi and Reagan, and the twin part). I found myself frowning and smiling over stupid little things in this book. Most of all, I learned about a great value of my own family.

Cather still loved her twin who previously ‘dumped’ her for an obnoxious roommate. She also cared a lot about her father even though he had a mental illness. But I also love how she’s still mad at her mother who left her family when she was a kid.

It felt so real to me. A lot of main characters in the books tend to forgive their parents who left them too easily. If it were me who was being left my mum or dad, I probably wouldn’t forgive them except they worked for my forgiveness.

In a shorter sentence; Fangirl is a great book but it doesn’t make me loss for words. Every fangirl can relate themselves in this book, even it is just a simple relation.

Rate: 7/10

Kisses,

Dee

Clingy :/

It’s been a while, I know. To start off, I’d like to apologize. I was too wrapped up with my new job and writing fics. There were a couple of times when I really wanted to write here but again, I was too lazy (covering my face with a pillow because I’m so ashamed right now).

So, everyone knows I’m single (I’ve been.. for a while now). And most of time, I’m not complaining about that because being single is just amazing. I can be friends with whoever I want, I can cuss whenever I like (although I don’t cuss a lot in real life), and of course I don’t have to share any food.

The thing is.. there are also times when I just want someone to hold me when I cry, telling me it will be okay. Yes, I have great bestfriends and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. But still, I want someone giving me attention, goofing around with me, and loving me no matter what stupid acts I will do in the future.

The thought of someone whispering nothing but sweet words.. it’s soothing. I want to shower that special someone with compliments just because he deserves it. If he can keep up with my crazy antics or even weird mood swings I often have, then yes, he fucking deserves thousand of compliments.

I don’t want to sound like I’m too clingy (which I’m pretty sure will scare most of people). But I AM CLINGY. Like it or not, I’m that kind of person who will text you at one in the morning just because I can’t sleep and I can’t stop thinking about you. It’s my way to show you how much I care about you and I don’t want to lose you to some stupid problems. You don't have to reply straight away, obviously. I'm not that clingy.

People always be like, “ew, she’s way too clingy. That’s disgusting”. It makes me so insecure about myself and question my sanity.

“Are they gonna leave me now that they know how clingy I could be?”

“I shouldn’t have done that, he’ll know I’m a clingy person”

“Oh crap, that question just slipped. Now they will rethink their opinions about me”

I, you, all of us for that matter, we shouldn't be sorry for being US. We don't owe people shit, do we? We are allowed to be a little clingy. But society is so frustrating! We have a fucked up society and sometimes it just angered me to no end.

I’m not seeking for attention. And I promise you, clingy doesn’t mean creepy. I may stalk your accounts once in a while or constantly checking in with you, just to assure myself that you are okay. But that’s it. There is no way I will collect every data about you, I'm not a psycho.

Clingy means we care about someone. In my opinion, clingy is good (but not too clingy tho). It just shows how much we trust him/her and we allow ourselves to be vulnerable in front of him/her.

Do you honestly think it's easy to be clingy? NO. NOPE.

Take me for an example. I can be attached to someone pretty quickly but then when they just left without any explanation, I will be a sobbing mess. Why? Because I genuinely care about them (maybe a bit too much). It hurts so much when people think it's okay to step on my feelings.

To anyone who still stands by me through everything– I salute you. There aren’t much people who willing to do that and I’m so grateful.

Kisses,

Dee

#LoveWins: A piece of respect

Hello loves!

Today I'd like to write about a very sensitive topic, not only in Indonesia, but in the whole world as well. I know that not everyone agrees with Supreme Court's decision earlier this month about gay marriage. And well, I just found it really interesting to write my very own opinions about this.

And I think I'd get some comments after I put this up. Since, you know, this is still a controversial thing. But really, I will not suggest homophobic people to read this. I suggest to leave the page immediately because as a matter of fact, I don't want you homophobic people write or talk nasty stuff after you read this. So, please, get the hell out of my blog.

Although it's absolutely okay for you who curious or even want to say your opinion towards this topic in the comment box below. OPINIONS, folks.

#LoveWins

"Being gay is a sin."

"You're disgusting."

"You shouldn't support LGBT community."

Those are only a few comments I've read online, whether it just a status on facebook, a tweet, or even a comment that sent by someone for me.

And before you think anything, just remember that I'm straight. This post is written because I want to talk/write about my opinions. 

Why?

Because I believe I have the right to do so. Everyone can say what they want as long as it doesn't offend anyone (even though people tend to offend someone with what their opinions nowadays). So, I will try to write what I have in mind without hurting anyone's feeling.

FYI, I do not fully support gay marriage. But I, in fact, admire the bravery of the LGBT community. You see, coming out of the closet (for you who don't know, it's a phrase about telling the world that you're gay) isn't easy as it seems. There are literally tons of hate you'll get once you came out.

I love Youtube. And one thing that I love, is that how powerful Youtube in teenagers life. Some of the youtubers decided to come out online. Tyler Oakley, Troye Sivan, Connor Franta, Ingrid Nilsen, and many others. Oh, Ellen DeGeneres and Cara Delevingne are both gays (if you don't know who they are, WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN? For serious tho, both women are very successful entertainers). If you happen to be curious, I would recommend their coming out videos. They were simply made because these people wanted the world to know that they're gay. But it doesn't make them any less creative or inspiring. Their videos/experience have made some people be more brave. I've read bunch of comments and posts about how people came out after watching those videos.

Some of you may think it's wrong to love someone with the same gender as you. Well, I think screw it. We always talk about equality. Especially equality between men and women. 

Confused? Okay, let me explain.

We all know society treats men like they have higher power than any women could have. For example, only men could be taxi or bus drivers, or footballers. Meanwhile women should stay at home, taking care of the kids. Not all women were pleased about this. So, they fought so hard for justice, for equality. And we can see the result at the present time. Women drive buses and taxis, we even see women play football.

Most of people want to be married at some point in their lives. You know, it would be very nice to have someone waiting on the couch when you had a rough day at work. The gays want that as well. They want someone to grow old with. Someone who will love them unconditionally.

I don't try to make you support gay marriage when I still can't fully support it. I only want you to respect the LGBT community. That's all I ask from you.

If we could tolerate how bad society treated women, why can't we tolerate them?

They don't cause any trouble for you, do they? So, please people. It's okay if you don't accept them, they don't need your acceptance to be who they are anyway. But please do not hate them for who they are, do not try to change or 'cure' them (they may be offended by that, if you don't notice).

Those people are still humans. They have feelings, they have insecurities, and they have rights to be alive. The very same rights as you. Please, I beg of you. Stop hating on them. And please stop wishing them to be dead. It sickens me to no end that people wish them to die.

Did any of that make any sense to you? Because if not, I'd just try to even shorten it to one sentence.

#LoveWins is about equality and giving a little respect to the LGBT community

So yeah, I think that's all I've got now. Maybe I will add some things in the future, I don't know. In the meantime, I hope you enjoy reading this post.

Later, loves.

Dina