Coming out of an episode
Honestly, I don't know why I'm writing this, but I need to pour out what I've been feeling without making other people uncomfortable. Things have been crazy. My last post was written when I was still in a bad headspace, and it was probably one of my worst depressive episodes I've had for the past 2 years. I was in a depressive state for like a week straight. I snapped too hard to the point that I might hurt my mother's feelings. I told her how I felt all this time. I guess part of me had had enough of how my own family trampled on my feelings and expected me to be okay with that. But, how could I? When I was a kid, I used to get beaten and yelled at almost every day because my father got so stressed out at work. Even when I got a perfect score on my exams, I was still at fault. My childhood was so full of expectations. I had to be the best at everything, and I did. I ranked 1st almost every semester during my primary school. I graduated 2nd in middle school, which, ...