A woman's little note

What's up, my bitches? ... okay that was totally fail. Forgive me. I won't do that, ever again. Pinky promise! Jadi, akan ngebahas apa postingan gue kali ini? Setelah gue liat - liat lagi kayaknya beberapa post sebelum ini kayaknya serius semua, bikin orang depresi -_- so, I have decided to pick another topic .  Mungkin buat elo yang nggak suka baca novel, judul postingan gue ini bakal terasa asing bin aneh. Tapi buat elo yang penggila novel, who the hell doesn't know him? Am I right?  Haha. Oke, kembali lagi ke topik awal. Kenapa gue pilih judul di atas? Karena Augustus Waters adalah tokoh fiksi kesukaan gue (baru - baru ini sih but.. who cares? ) dari novel The Fault In Our Stars  (TFIOS) karangan si jenius John Green. Let me tell you few things about him (and of course, a bit spoiler) . Augustus Waters itu main character  dari TFIOS alongside Hazel Lancaster (yang sering dipanggil Hazel Grace). Gus (panggilan Augustus) ini sebene...

"I'm losing myself Trying to compete With everyone else Instead of just being me Don't know where to turn I've been stuck in this routine I need to change my ways Instead of always being weak." Have you ever heard "meltdown"? According to Urban Dictionary , the word meltdown describes what happens when a person freaks out, cracks, and loses control of themselves. Life - reality at large- becomes overwhelming. They just can't deal with it all. The person may act out, withdraw, become emotional, run, etc...  As for me, I'd like to call a meltdown the lowest point in someone's life. Everyone has their lowest point, which some of them turned into their turning point in their life. Whether they turned into someone better or worse.. that's their choice. I am constantly having these meltdowns. I don't know why, though, I just do. Like, when I'm alone in the room and having a flashback from that time when people kept sayin...

Did you ever feel like drowning? Like, you felt you were sinkin’ in? I mean, that time when you realize that you’re no longer the same person you used to be and you were like, “okay, this is the new me”. Have you ever felt that way? Because I have. Gue itu tipe orang yang terlalu gampang maafin orang. Terlalu gampang ‘luluh’ sama permintaan maaf mereka. Kenapa? I really don’t know . Mungkin karena menurut gue memaafkan itu lebih gampang daripada terus marah *shrugs*. Tapi gara – gara sifat gue itu juga gue jadi sering dimanfaatin. People would offend me and then apologize to me just because they know I’ll forgive them . Emang nggak selalu langsung gue maafin, kadang gue diemin mereka beberapa hari dulu baru gue bisa maafin. What I was thinking since this afternoon is that how people can stay mad at someone? Like, seriously. How do they do that? Gue udah berkali – kali nyoba buat tetep marah tapi ujung – ujungnya selalu sama, gue maafin mereka. It just so frustr...

Okay, how are you guys doing? I'd like to tell you a serious note here . Even until this very day, this topic is still kind of sore to me. A very touchy subject to talk. Ever heard of bullying ? Well , buat yang nggak tau, biar gue jelasin dikit. Bullying adalah usaha yang dilakuin orang - orang menyedihkan dan kurang kerjaan untuk membuat seseorang 'jatuh', physically and mentally . Entah dari cara mereka memperlakukan orang lain atau cara mereka memanggil seseorang dengan nama yang nggak pantas.  Why are they doing that? Do they have a purpose or what? Yes, they actually do . Those bullies who constantly try to make us down maybe feel threaten by us . Mereka mencoba jatuhin kita, itu artinya kita ada jauh di atas mereka. Mereka menyebut kita dengan nama - nama, yang tanpa mereka sadari, membuat kita sakit hati. But you know what? That actually makes me sick . Siapa sih elo sampe bisa ngatain seseorang? Let's be honest here . In my wh...

Your birthday, remember? :) Kita slalu berpendapat Kita ini yang terhebat Kesombongan di masa muda yang indah Okay, hello!!! This is super late but I just really need to post this one. Why? Because it’s a gift. Sounds strange but actually, this is all I’ve got. So, Alfian Dana Susilo Aji, I dedicate this post for you, buddy. Jaman - jaman UAS kemaren. Sempet banget foto selfie Okay, where should I start? Awal pertemuan kita. Aku mikir, “nih anak sok cool banget dih, malesin” hahaha tapi emang ternyata kamu orangnya sayu gimana gitu ya. Meskipun gitu, I just feel so … connected to you . Beberapa gelas kopi di warung Bu Tarno dan berbungkus – bungkus rokok kemudian, kita jadi deket. Gosh , gak nyangka bisa sedeket ini. AlBitra JeChafid DiNaFis; Alfian, Maybitra, Jessy, Chafid, Dita, Dina, and Nafis. Yang awalnya main bareng di kos Rezky sampe malem terus semenjak kamu sama Bitra mulai kos di Pleburan, it sure looked like our basecamp . Gila ya, ...

Holla! I know it's been quiet long time since my last post but I promise you guys, I will be posting my new story very soon. So please, bear with me! Today I'd like to talk about "Life". Common topic, really. Why I choose this one? Well, last night I was on my Ask.fm page and some anon asked me an unique question; what is the definition of "Life"? So, this was my answer (please keep in mind that I don't really like giving long-rambling kind of answer): Life is an endless labyrinth, unexpected journey. you never know when you gonna meet the end. sure, everyone wants to escape this "labyrinth" but in the end of the day, you can't. just enjoy it. And in here I'd like to explain it more. For you whom already read my post Looking For Alaska , this post will related a lot to that post, so I really hope you guys gonna understand this post. Why am I calling "Life" as a labyrinth? Because you never know what...

Guten Tag!!! I’m on my way to say more than a ‘hello’ in German. Yessszzzzuuhhh! How are you guys doing today? I really hope you guys doing okay because I am. Anyway, sorry for not posting any writings before this. I mean, I did try but then the idea was gone and those pending posts are ended up in my draft. So well, sorry, told ya I’m really suck to stick to one idea. Alright, so uhm, I moved on from that guy (let’s not talk about that). And it was good to finally say good bye after several debate I was having with my self. I feel free, somehow. Right at this moment, I’m kind of falling for my bestfriend. Holy fudge, this is happening again for God’s sake. But looking back to where we first met until now –it’s not love at the first sight, we actually really close. Sure, our friendship mostly about us insulting each other, threaten each other, and of course laughing together. And it was a lot of laughing, let me tell you. He always treats me diffe...